Electric day

I felt like I was six when I ran to catch the train today. My mind clear as ecstasy noticing every little detail that I could possible perceive. The people, the cars, the animals, the signs!

I rare that I have so much "electricity" in me as I had today. Only can I remember a few occasions.

The hair saloon called my cell and told me that my hairdresser was 30 minutes late, and suggested that I maybe wanted to wait somewhere else than there. Ok, so I'm standing outside a church. Thinking "Why not" (I'm baptized and confirmed, but haven't paid church much visit ever since)

The church felt calm. Just by siting there I received even more energy, releasing my body and enhancing my senses even more. If I would have stayed longer than 15 minutes, I swear that my body would glide away. I'm not a believer in the bible or in jesus (in the way that they are manuals for my life) but I really believe in church as being open for everyone, free of charge - filling the purpose for place to be and question life and divinity. I do feel calm in churches.

Later at the hair saloon , I felt stress and artificialness. The people there felt tense and played typical roles, instead of playing themselves. Yet not nightmare either. Lost some energy. Got a good haircut.

Spent the rest of the day using my ecstasy watching people.

Suddendly

The feeling came, and the man forgot to blink his eyes. His sight became white and his body began vibrating. Where's my sight? He blinked.

He came back. His sight was normal. For a moment he had realized what seeing was, but then he got his sight back and was once blind again.

Timeless rebel

Master Sun-Tzu Said,

Invulnerability is
Defense;
Vulnerability is
Attack;

I add:

Invulnerability is
Wisedom
Vulnerability is
Unawareness

Lao-Tzu said:

A wise man is not taught,
A taught man is not wise

I say:

Being taught is being vulnerable.
Being wise is being invulnerable.

I question,

Why does people defend being vulnerable?

Assumption,

They are taught so.

Feeling over nothing

When I'm out by myself, I more often get a euphoric feeling over nothing in particular. I realize that at this spot, were I'm standing right now is absolute. The people, animals and things at that spot are absolute. It's a feeling that everything is what it is. Where ever one stand also stand some unlimited possibilities. And always unique possibilities for that That spot at That time.

Eventually my mind find itself standing at a different place than my body, and the balance goes out again. But only to eventually become synchronized again. That's the beauty.

A odd afternoon nap

Grew tired because of the sun, so I feel asleep on the sofa. Then I heard my roommate come home. I was half awake, hearing him just a little and I was thinking I should get up. But I fell asleep. But then I heard him again, but fell asleep. And then again, but I fell asleep.
Then I had a out-of-the body experience, started to fly around the room and I tried to get up to the other floor through the roof, but it would bend, not letting my body through. Then I woke up, finding that my roommate wasn't in, at all, and that I should get back to work.

A odd out-of-the-afternoon-nap-experience.

Tic tac, computerclock.

Here I'm siting, frustrated trying with my logic mind, to repair a computer. The computer, man's invention to create a as logic and controllable virtual reality as possible.

The computer isn't working. Using logic trying to solve logic is a strange process when you question it, I'd say. Why do we use this virtual reality? I'm looking at gaining more control, fast and easy.

But why doesn't the 21th century man understand that the more you are controlling something, the more "it" controls you.
The computer is since about 50 years back vital to keep the society under control. We had to invent it. But what happens when we want more control over the computer than it can bring us? Just like when we invented it to get more control over "life" than "it" could bring us? I predict a sub-reality to the sub-reality. A computer to the computer.

Who wants a non-working reality and a non-working virtual reality? I better fix my frustration... I mean... the computer.