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The gong fu school I

Okay, so you might be wondering why I haven't posted anything. The reason is that I can't access blogspot.com, it seems that it can't be accessed anywhere in China.

Anyway, I'm surfing through a computer in Japan (from china) and it works perfectly fine. I ended up in a different Gong fu school, since I heard some bad rumours about the one I chose.

The school is quite large, and consists of maybe 100 chinese students, age 5-20. Most of them are probably poor, and was put on the school by the parents so that they could make something out of their lives. Some will join the police force or maybe military force. Some will be Wu shu teachers, and one or two might be film actresses or stuntmen.

We train 7 days a week, but were have sunday afternoons off and 4 days at the end of every month. There are 4 western people at the school, and we train directly under the shifus. We don't train the same things as the chinese. They mostly train modern wushu, while we train traditional gong fu. The difference is that Wu shu is most for show and consists a lot of acrobatics and fast moves, but lacks force and power. Traditional gong fu is slower and less beautiful but consits greater force and can be used for fighting.

Some students train Sanda, which is pure combat fighting. I will begin to train that in a couple of months, but now I'm focusing on Gong fu and Tai Chi.

The reason the chinese students train Wu shu, is because the chinese goverment loves it. It is beautiful for sure, I'll make sure to post some pictures soon.

Rethinking everything I believe

I have spent 3 great weeks in Japan visiting my brother and his girl and felt much comfortable in there. Now I am in Beijing, China. My master plan is to study Shaolin Gong fu and Qi gong here for a year. Not in Beijing though, but in mainland China.

I knew that China and Japan are very different. But the culture shock was bigger than I imagined. The air, city structure, culture - everything new.

Went out to have something to eat when arriving here. I live a bit downtown in Chongwen, and at 11.00PM most restaurants were closed here. But I found a small local place that was open. Ordered some meat dish which I probably don't want to know what it was. It looked and tasted unusual I can say. Some chinese guy took a photo of me eating it, so it was probably something hardcore. Mc Donald's was closed.

Spiritually, I realized that my next step is to rethink everything I believe in. Demolish all the everyday rituals, systems and recipes I follow. Reconsider everything. Go back to the basics. I realized that I have so many ideas and beliefs how things relate, and those are keeping me from developing the way that I want to.

I have lost something, and there is something right in front of me I have yet not found. I need to rediscover.

Again breathing air from someplace behind.
Rising memories dwell in new air, while the air battle.
Assured of it's strenght, the air roars for another battle,
for it has already won.
Like the lion roaring to be filled, rising.
Moving on,
surrendering to victory,
surrender to now.

Winter is slowly developing to spring.

Play and be played

A boy plays with a car.
The boy grows up to be a man.
A car plays with the man.

A boy plays with time.
The boy grows up to be a man.
Time plays with the man.

Someone plays with life
A grown man.
Life plays back.
They smile.
For he has not grown out of it.

Update

Hi, sorry for the recent lack of updates. (if someone is actually reading my blog)
Check out Rasmus blog here. It's much more accurate at the moment.

The three ways to perceive

The environment was predictable and unexciting, thought the man.
- Close your eyes for a couple of minutes, and feel yourself. said the Master.
The man closed his eyes and began to feel his heartbeat. It was fast and intense. He began to calm it down. In the middle of the process, the Master suggested that he should look up. He did so, and suddenly felt how the environment was different, and more calm.
- Continue, if you feel. said the Master
The man continued the process. When he was done he looked up and suddenly felt the environment exciting and vibrating. The people, trees, birds - yes, everything - suddenly had something to "say" to him.

The master said,
- You will always have at least three different ways to perceive this world around you. The only thing you can do is to choose which one...
- True, said the Master, who actually were the man himself.

And the man was, actually me.

Bad karma

3 things that's bad for your karma.

Giving away received gifts.
Ok so you got this cheap chocolate last-last christmas from someone, and now you thought it would be convenient to give it to your coworker on his birthday? Don't. *

Ego-Googling™
Searching for yourself on Google.

Thinking what people will say about you on your funeral
This one is really, really bad. Don't elaborate on it!

NOTE: These are views and opinions by the author and does not necessarily follow those by the law of nature by the same or all extent.

* You probably got it from someone, who got it from his boss last new year who got it from his secretary who got it from her freind who got it from her aunt Petty.

Trees and true nature

The upper tree branch must look down to know that it's above, but it does not look down. The lower tree branch must look up to know that it's under, but it does not look up.

Look, where the treetops are, that's where heaven start and that's where the trees start growing from.

I let all the three branches be higher than myself, as if heaven were earth.
Meanwhile, the three branches lets me be higher than them, as if earth were heaven.
They know where they grow and stand, so they do not have to look neither up or down on anything.

When you know where you grow, you will as the trees, not have the need to look up or down on anything. You will meet tranquillity and awareness.

you just have to found out where.

Poetry

The net. Freedom to watch what you want to watch from it. Free to read of what you want to read of it. Free to say what you want to it.
But not in China.

Rasmus, where is your blog at?

Autumn bliss

Autumn made it's entrance here yesterday. While I was siting outside relaxing, I fell into a really deep meditation. I started to feel how it felt to be the environment. All the sounds were me. This happened to me only once before, back then I got terrified. I was lying in my bed listening to the cars outside the window and I got the idea that I was controlling them (But I was just "being them"). But this time, there were merely any cars, and I was more aware of this nature. It was beautiful.

Where ever you are, you're playing a role there. Things and others are influenced by your actions, to take their actions and vice verse. If you feel and listen to your nature and act by it, other people and things will do that to.

Autumn

The leafs will fall, wherever you sit.

I love detroit techno.

Moods

Something happened the last couple of days, feels like I've been through some sort of transition. First of all, my observing sense has improved a lot. I notice far more than before. Second of all, I find myself having more control and awareness in my dreams. I find myself releasing my body deep just about every night when I go to sleep.

I think I've released my ego a lot. I'm far more better at seeing people in a positive mood when I'm in a negative, and seeing people in a negative mood when I'm in a positive one.
Normally if I feel that someone is in a negative mood, my feelings gets really affected by it (even if I camouflage it) But I've found myself being better in keeping my mood while I'm feeling somebody else's.

The output has become really good, for me and the people around.

Electric day

I felt like I was six when I ran to catch the train today. My mind clear as ecstasy noticing every little detail that I could possible perceive. The people, the cars, the animals, the signs!

I rare that I have so much "electricity" in me as I had today. Only can I remember a few occasions.

The hair saloon called my cell and told me that my hairdresser was 30 minutes late, and suggested that I maybe wanted to wait somewhere else than there. Ok, so I'm standing outside a church. Thinking "Why not" (I'm baptized and confirmed, but haven't paid church much visit ever since)

The church felt calm. Just by siting there I received even more energy, releasing my body and enhancing my senses even more. If I would have stayed longer than 15 minutes, I swear that my body would glide away. I'm not a believer in the bible or in jesus (in the way that they are manuals for my life) but I really believe in church as being open for everyone, free of charge - filling the purpose for place to be and question life and divinity. I do feel calm in churches.

Later at the hair saloon , I felt stress and artificialness. The people there felt tense and played typical roles, instead of playing themselves. Yet not nightmare either. Lost some energy. Got a good haircut.

Spent the rest of the day using my ecstasy watching people.

Suddendly

The feeling came, and the man forgot to blink his eyes. His sight became white and his body began vibrating. Where's my sight? He blinked.

He came back. His sight was normal. For a moment he had realized what seeing was, but then he got his sight back and was once blind again.

Timeless rebel

Master Sun-Tzu Said,

Invulnerability is
Defense;
Vulnerability is
Attack;

I add:

Invulnerability is
Wisedom
Vulnerability is
Unawareness

Lao-Tzu said:

A wise man is not taught,
A taught man is not wise

I say:

Being taught is being vulnerable.
Being wise is being invulnerable.

I question,

Why does people defend being vulnerable?

Assumption,

They are taught so.

Feeling over nothing

When I'm out by myself, I more often get a euphoric feeling over nothing in particular. I realize that at this spot, were I'm standing right now is absolute. The people, animals and things at that spot are absolute. It's a feeling that everything is what it is. Where ever one stand also stand some unlimited possibilities. And always unique possibilities for that That spot at That time.

Eventually my mind find itself standing at a different place than my body, and the balance goes out again. But only to eventually become synchronized again. That's the beauty.

A odd afternoon nap

Grew tired because of the sun, so I feel asleep on the sofa. Then I heard my roommate come home. I was half awake, hearing him just a little and I was thinking I should get up. But I fell asleep. But then I heard him again, but fell asleep. And then again, but I fell asleep.
Then I had a out-of-the body experience, started to fly around the room and I tried to get up to the other floor through the roof, but it would bend, not letting my body through. Then I woke up, finding that my roommate wasn't in, at all, and that I should get back to work.

A odd out-of-the-afternoon-nap-experience.

Tic tac, computerclock.

Here I'm siting, frustrated trying with my logic mind, to repair a computer. The computer, man's invention to create a as logic and controllable virtual reality as possible.

The computer isn't working. Using logic trying to solve logic is a strange process when you question it, I'd say. Why do we use this virtual reality? I'm looking at gaining more control, fast and easy.

But why doesn't the 21th century man understand that the more you are controlling something, the more "it" controls you.
The computer is since about 50 years back vital to keep the society under control. We had to invent it. But what happens when we want more control over the computer than it can bring us? Just like when we invented it to get more control over "life" than "it" could bring us? I predict a sub-reality to the sub-reality. A computer to the computer.

Who wants a non-working reality and a non-working virtual reality? I better fix my frustration... I mean... the computer.