Update

Hi, sorry for the recent lack of updates. (if someone is actually reading my blog)
Check out Rasmus blog here. It's much more accurate at the moment.

The three ways to perceive

The environment was predictable and unexciting, thought the man.
- Close your eyes for a couple of minutes, and feel yourself. said the Master.
The man closed his eyes and began to feel his heartbeat. It was fast and intense. He began to calm it down. In the middle of the process, the Master suggested that he should look up. He did so, and suddenly felt how the environment was different, and more calm.
- Continue, if you feel. said the Master
The man continued the process. When he was done he looked up and suddenly felt the environment exciting and vibrating. The people, trees, birds - yes, everything - suddenly had something to "say" to him.

The master said,
- You will always have at least three different ways to perceive this world around you. The only thing you can do is to choose which one...
- True, said the Master, who actually were the man himself.

And the man was, actually me.

Bad karma

3 things that's bad for your karma.

Giving away received gifts.
Ok so you got this cheap chocolate last-last christmas from someone, and now you thought it would be convenient to give it to your coworker on his birthday? Don't. *

Ego-Googling™
Searching for yourself on Google.

Thinking what people will say about you on your funeral
This one is really, really bad. Don't elaborate on it!

NOTE: These are views and opinions by the author and does not necessarily follow those by the law of nature by the same or all extent.

* You probably got it from someone, who got it from his boss last new year who got it from his secretary who got it from her freind who got it from her aunt Petty.

Trees and true nature

The upper tree branch must look down to know that it's above, but it does not look down. The lower tree branch must look up to know that it's under, but it does not look up.

Look, where the treetops are, that's where heaven start and that's where the trees start growing from.

I let all the three branches be higher than myself, as if heaven were earth.
Meanwhile, the three branches lets me be higher than them, as if earth were heaven.
They know where they grow and stand, so they do not have to look neither up or down on anything.

When you know where you grow, you will as the trees, not have the need to look up or down on anything. You will meet tranquillity and awareness.

you just have to found out where.

Poetry

The net. Freedom to watch what you want to watch from it. Free to read of what you want to read of it. Free to say what you want to it.
But not in China.

Rasmus, where is your blog at?

Autumn bliss

Autumn made it's entrance here yesterday. While I was siting outside relaxing, I fell into a really deep meditation. I started to feel how it felt to be the environment. All the sounds were me. This happened to me only once before, back then I got terrified. I was lying in my bed listening to the cars outside the window and I got the idea that I was controlling them (But I was just "being them"). But this time, there were merely any cars, and I was more aware of this nature. It was beautiful.

Where ever you are, you're playing a role there. Things and others are influenced by your actions, to take their actions and vice verse. If you feel and listen to your nature and act by it, other people and things will do that to.

Autumn

The leafs will fall, wherever you sit.

I love detroit techno.

Moods

Something happened the last couple of days, feels like I've been through some sort of transition. First of all, my observing sense has improved a lot. I notice far more than before. Second of all, I find myself having more control and awareness in my dreams. I find myself releasing my body deep just about every night when I go to sleep.

I think I've released my ego a lot. I'm far more better at seeing people in a positive mood when I'm in a negative, and seeing people in a negative mood when I'm in a positive one.
Normally if I feel that someone is in a negative mood, my feelings gets really affected by it (even if I camouflage it) But I've found myself being better in keeping my mood while I'm feeling somebody else's.

The output has become really good, for me and the people around.

Electric day

I felt like I was six when I ran to catch the train today. My mind clear as ecstasy noticing every little detail that I could possible perceive. The people, the cars, the animals, the signs!

I rare that I have so much "electricity" in me as I had today. Only can I remember a few occasions.

The hair saloon called my cell and told me that my hairdresser was 30 minutes late, and suggested that I maybe wanted to wait somewhere else than there. Ok, so I'm standing outside a church. Thinking "Why not" (I'm baptized and confirmed, but haven't paid church much visit ever since)

The church felt calm. Just by siting there I received even more energy, releasing my body and enhancing my senses even more. If I would have stayed longer than 15 minutes, I swear that my body would glide away. I'm not a believer in the bible or in jesus (in the way that they are manuals for my life) but I really believe in church as being open for everyone, free of charge - filling the purpose for place to be and question life and divinity. I do feel calm in churches.

Later at the hair saloon , I felt stress and artificialness. The people there felt tense and played typical roles, instead of playing themselves. Yet not nightmare either. Lost some energy. Got a good haircut.

Spent the rest of the day using my ecstasy watching people.

Suddendly

The feeling came, and the man forgot to blink his eyes. His sight became white and his body began vibrating. Where's my sight? He blinked.

He came back. His sight was normal. For a moment he had realized what seeing was, but then he got his sight back and was once blind again.

Timeless rebel

Master Sun-Tzu Said,

Invulnerability is
Defense;
Vulnerability is
Attack;

I add:

Invulnerability is
Wisedom
Vulnerability is
Unawareness

Lao-Tzu said:

A wise man is not taught,
A taught man is not wise

I say:

Being taught is being vulnerable.
Being wise is being invulnerable.

I question,

Why does people defend being vulnerable?

Assumption,

They are taught so.

Feeling over nothing

When I'm out by myself, I more often get a euphoric feeling over nothing in particular. I realize that at this spot, were I'm standing right now is absolute. The people, animals and things at that spot are absolute. It's a feeling that everything is what it is. Where ever one stand also stand some unlimited possibilities. And always unique possibilities for that That spot at That time.

Eventually my mind find itself standing at a different place than my body, and the balance goes out again. But only to eventually become synchronized again. That's the beauty.

A odd afternoon nap

Grew tired because of the sun, so I feel asleep on the sofa. Then I heard my roommate come home. I was half awake, hearing him just a little and I was thinking I should get up. But I fell asleep. But then I heard him again, but fell asleep. And then again, but I fell asleep.
Then I had a out-of-the body experience, started to fly around the room and I tried to get up to the other floor through the roof, but it would bend, not letting my body through. Then I woke up, finding that my roommate wasn't in, at all, and that I should get back to work.

A odd out-of-the-afternoon-nap-experience.

Tic tac, computerclock.

Here I'm siting, frustrated trying with my logic mind, to repair a computer. The computer, man's invention to create a as logic and controllable virtual reality as possible.

The computer isn't working. Using logic trying to solve logic is a strange process when you question it, I'd say. Why do we use this virtual reality? I'm looking at gaining more control, fast and easy.

But why doesn't the 21th century man understand that the more you are controlling something, the more "it" controls you.
The computer is since about 50 years back vital to keep the society under control. We had to invent it. But what happens when we want more control over the computer than it can bring us? Just like when we invented it to get more control over "life" than "it" could bring us? I predict a sub-reality to the sub-reality. A computer to the computer.

Who wants a non-working reality and a non-working virtual reality? I better fix my frustration... I mean... the computer.

Blog of the day

Post secret
Doesn't it feel great that one is not the only one having crazy secrets.

Summer

Summer is here! Well at least here, were I live. Now, am I the only one who thinks this season is the most frustrating one of them all? OK, when to work? when to go on vacation? where to work? where to go on vacation? do that? or do this? When's that? When's this? - OK! Time out! -

This summer i will do exactly what I've done most of my previous summers, i.e just relax and take day by day without planning anything specific.
And then when summer is over, I will regret everything I've could have done but didn't do!

Note

The sky was beautiful today

Books

Received this chain letter from Henrik (cool blog by the way) It took me some time to come up with the answers, but here they are!

1. Total number of books owned?
Not sure, about 200 I guess, maybe more.

2. The last book I bought ?
Lé Peste - Albert Camus

3. The last book I read?
Siddhartha

4. Five books that meant a lot to me.

The alchemist, Coelho Paulo
A great book that I found very suitable to read when dreams are too far away. It's a story about a shepherd who gives up everything to follow his life journey and his dream. I think this book can fit just about anyone.

Zen speaks, Chung Tsai Chih
Actually a comic-book with teachings of Zen. I usually pick it up on certain occasions, and I always understand/learn something new. Hilarious book.

Man and his symbols, Jung Carl Gustav
A book that provided me with a lot of words and perspectives on thoughts I had trouble to map.

Russian Avante-garde books 1917-34, Compton Susan
Picked up this book at an antiques-shop a couple of years ago, without much insight on the subject. Little did I know that it was to play a essential role as a source of inspiration in creating my own art.

Siddhartha, Hesse Herman
A tale of Siddhartha, a young brahmin searching for a place to get his life fulfilled. He meet various different people, including Buddha, to find what he is looking for is something else.

5. Take 3 people and have them fill this out on their LJ:s.
New world boarders, Metafizzics and Philentropy

One was suppose to pick five people, but I only came up with three and I think picking five can be a little hard so I'm changing the chain letter (I hope that's not a sin!) Maybe some reader(s) want to fill in?

Unusual thing

There is it this unusual thing that occurred me three times this week. I've been keeping my down thinking about something (can't recall what) and doubted it since I haven't found a way to prove it. All three times when I looked up, I've found myself looking at some beautiful flower bushes, which I have some yet unmapped liking for. This happened at different places and in different stages, and in the state of being awake.

Symbol for hope?

The art of mapping

The recent week I've been trying to improve my way of mapping my thoughts. I.e connecting yesterday's thought with today's, and mapping them somewhere.

I feel that I've just been collecting 'material' the recent days, because my mind hasn't exercised many thoughts. My theory is that when those times we say "nothing is happening" occurs, we're often in a state where we need collect things to reach some more distant state (which need some work to reach)

I predicted this day to be just another day of collecting material. But it only took me to go down and buy some milk to get my mind filled with thoughts to exercise.
I realized that going down to the shop to buy some milk also had a purpose of taking up many of the thoughts I collected. I had many realizations on my way to store. In theory, I believe every action has a lot of purposes beyond those we directly know. That's basic psychology. However, I think having that cognitively to start with is hard! I think I improved my cognitive sense to that today.

This is a interesting pattern I find myself in a lot:

Collecting thoughts - Being at home, with friends, or in a familiar environment
Taking up thoughts - Moving physically/mentally to somewhere else
Mapping thoughts - Being at home, with friends or in a familiar environment.

It can be reversed in many ways, but 'taking up thoughts' is dependent on switching to another environment than the one one's in when 'collecting thoughts'.
Now this can be developed much further, I considering doing that.

I just love exploring the versatility in situations!